semakin gelap dan amat memenatkan .. =D

bape lame dah tak typing kat blog yang tah kurun bila aku tak bukak,,haha,,kenape lah tergerak hati ni nak isi ruangan new post ni,,,org tua2 selalu pesan dah makan simpan,,hehe,,sebab tu kot aku menulis hari ni,,
this is the beginning of our story la kan,,selalu nye aku akan blogging ble time2 aku nak final,nak cuti sem, nak berak pon kadang2,,tapi time ni btol2 jadi lah,,mmg tgah study week,,and just wrote this for my own reminder and my own sake ..
bila mase study week aku da kne curi dgn assignment yang bertimbun,,kenape lecturer bertindak sedemikian,hairan lah,,haha,,kenape tak bagi awal2 mase aku tgah free,,,sepatutnye ni mase aku nak bace buku nak buat revision (nak pasang gundam sbnarnye). tension tol la camney,,pas ney cti sem lak,,dah lah pendek je,,kenape cti sem bkn 14 minggu gak kan,macam mggu2 blaja yang bese,,
terputus harapan lah skali kan nak buat ape yang dah bertangguh selama ni,,akaun siap dah,,lpas ni ade ento plak,,pahtu ade kne buat statistics,,,nak blek pon tak sempat lah skali,,dah lah kne wane wani,,aku bknstudent art lah sir,kenapa sir nak buku sir sbgai assgnment,,kenape bkn assignment yang len sir,harapan nak A je sir sem ni,,hahaha,,harap sir dapat lah buat yang terbaek mase tanda sye pnye paper final nanti,,hahahaha..mancing tak uitm dah lah ade ikan keli je,,selamat ikan keli bleh buat masak lemak cili api,,hehe,makan free sehari,,haha,tapi memancing buat aku mkin hitam la,,jumaat ni blek mst mak marah knape aku hitam sgt,,aku ase nak bagi alasan g kelas jalan kaki la panas2,,nanti mak banje mtr,,tak pon cakap pncuci mke habes,,nak yang vaseline for men,,hahaha,,mst dapat kan2,,hahaha,,arhh,,mengarot je dah ni,,blah dulu lah,,hehehe,,salam..
*get high on life

my note to her

for sure my word is bad..but still remembering  my ex-lecturer saying ''just wrote it''..=)..and i'm here to write something that had something going on with her,,really miss u,but as promise,,5 years to go until its really on,,still remember your advice for this something,,''u are always with me''..and yeah,,me too always with u,,,but,,maybe a kind of apologize if i'm not doing it clearly as ''always with u''..some sort of hell yeah thing,,when i'm there,u are not,,and its held vice versa,,for your reminder,,its has been almost two years i'm not really seeing u,even that a moment watching Ombak Rindu together,i'm not a malay kind of movie's watcher,,and i'm sleeping at most of the time,,why is this all happening,,why would us just be a friend,,a normal friend to friend type of relationship,,i'm totally out of this kind of long distance relationship,,at night,wish to had dinner with u,,watching midnight movie with u,send u at home before its too late,giving u cards,say the precious word as 'i love u' right close to your ears,,,and the most appreciation that getting a feedback from your mouth,,,
really sorry for everything..i'm trying as much as i try..life is too short babe,,
fly high babe,,i'm just follow the flow..wish to keep it off until the time is came by me,,for not making u bored when it is it..

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semalam aku belajar tentang pokok getah, dan akhirnya terjawab pertanyaan aku selama ini..kenapa getah bau busuk?..haha..semua disebabkan microb2 yang ada dalam latex itu sendiri yang akan reactive dengan alam sekitar, latex tu tak busuk pun pada mulanya..laptop aku pun rosak sudah..and aku dah bingung dah ney,,on9 pun guna laptop kawan...kalau pakai lama2  mesti dia marah kan,,haha

ohoooo hoi!!

haha,,lame dah tak update blog,,lame gile,,haha,,sbb tak tau nak tulis ape,,
sumething bad had happened,,i lost my lovely shoes,,thanks pade sang pencuri!!agak jahat ek kau,,
dah lah kasot tue mak aku bg kat aku,,=(,,
em,,final pon tggal seminggu je,,ape nak jadi ney,,blaja asik taak paham je,,cam ne lah nak dekan ney,,
haha,,papepon thanks kat lecturer sume,,,my frens,,aku bkn kedekot ilmu doe,,aku pon kdg2 tak pandai nak terangkan kat korang,,sory r bro,,,korang jgn ar asik nak pressure aku je,,
bleh jadi gle doe aku camney,,kang lau aku yg tak bpe nak paham ney ajar korang nanti same tak paham,,
korang usahe lah sendiri yek,,pandai2 lah nak hidop,,
aku pon susa2 gak nak paham ape lecturer tue bebel kat depan,,=)
papepon gud luck r final t,,

moge2 berdekan lah kte beramai2,,haha,,luve u frens,,huhu

yesterday =)

lame dah aku tak menulis kat blog ney,,,haha,,,lame tak update suda,,huhu,,aku ase la aku cam nak tulis something hari ney sebab aku ase aku nak mnulis,,haha,,em,,sejak kebelakangan ney la kan,,aku ase cam tak sedap hati je ngan hidop aku pas ney,,apekan aku jadi pasney?mane mase depan aku?
bnd2 camney la yang bermain2 kat pale otak aku,wat otak aku serabot,,
sampai nak study aku cam hilang dah mud =(,,mak aku ade cakap,,
'bukan senang nak senang',,bnd ney pon asik tersangkot je,,
kat pale otak aku ,,kadang2 munasabah aku leh hilang,,
aku marah tak tentu pasal,,aku tulis pelik2 kat blog,,
cam skrg,,aku pon tak tau ape yg aku nak tulis narnye,,
hmmm,,,,aku dah jaoh tersasar dgn matlamat aku kat dunia ney,,,
masalah selalu mndampingi aku yang selalu bermasalah ney,,
ape nak jadi kat aku,,pon aku tak tau suda,,juz aku rndu kat someone yang da lame takde dalam hati aku,,,
aneh kan,,aku kdg2 teregt kt mase lame aku ngan dye dulu2,,
tp cam aku dah tak patot egt dah sume tue skrg,,
atau aku juz egt bnd yg happy je psl dye,,
npe bnd burok psl dye aku tak egt lak ek,???
-confiusnism!!!!!!!!-
aku dah gile,,hahaha

lalalalalalaaaa,,,,bosan yang sgt mnyakitkan hati,,

bodoh je rase sey hari ney,,ape pon tak bleh r,,tah pape je yang jadi,,dah la pg2 kne g dwan,,tapi ape pon aku tak dpt,,cam blurr je,,,dgn fon aku rosak lagi satu hal,,cam dah jd katak bwah tempurung dah,,ape pn susa,,nak contact kawan susa,family lg,,pergh,,tension,,!!,,tak de bnd yang leh wat sume kje senang ke,,haha,,lau ade aku nak try r,,,huhu..kalau ade la,,susa gak ek jd student universiti ney,,cam2 hal la,,itu nye la,,ini la,,dgn masalah cos lg,,kelas,,fakulti lg stu hal,,mane perginye unity against oddity,,kalau sume orang tetap jadi 'sombong,bongkak dan takbur',,mybe ade btolnye kate2 seorang PA ney,,=),,chaw,,-get high on life-

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kian hitam dan kabur,
berasak-asakkan mncari nafas segar,
ceritera semalaman mula hancur,
hancur bergelimpangan,
hancur dan menghancurkan,
ah,adakah hidup ku ini sebegini rupa,
adakah aku yg patut disalahkan,
dan diberi hukuman?,
atau sekarang inilah masa hukuman aku,
hukuman atas segala salah dan silap aku selama ini?

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